It’s hard to quantify what opportunities I lost in the ten years I played WoW but I know I lost out on some. I didn’t work hard in school, I ignored clubs and most extracurriculars. I was single minded in my love of the game, my guild, my friends. To this day, I think the reason I was able to quit initially was because my friends quit before me. Without that, I might’ve been looking at a very different life.
Over the years, I’ve been tempted to go back to WoW every time a new expansion is released. But, I always resist for a number of reasons but the underlying issue is, I don’t want to miss out on life because of WoW. And I know how easy it’d be for me to fall back into my old habits. As it turns out, I did have something to be worried about.
In case you ever want to make me feel bad, ask me how much time I’ve spent on World of Warcraft. I have a pretty close estimate and it’s nothing to feel good about. I also probably won’t tell you. Yeah, it’s that bad.
Roughly two weeks ago I created a fresh character in Warcraft that I leveled from lvl 20 all the way to 120. As of the morning of writing this that character has 7 days, 0 hours, 11 minutes, and 52 seconds of play time on it. Now, I’d say a good part of that time was spent tabbed out working or straight up AFK but that doesn’t change the fact that for half of the time I’ve had that character, I’ve been logged in on it. And I’m not going to try to account for my other characters.
As critical of WoW as I am, I still spent around half of my last couple weeks playing it. But here’s the rub, I spent a good amount of that time playing with some of my good friends and I don’t feel bad about that. The fun hasn’t been in the game itself, cause WoW still is trash, it’s been in reconnecting to the WoW community.
I like playing World of Warcraft. It’s a pleasant way to spend some time and I’m not going to quit. But I know that part of me will always be vulnerable to adopting unhealthy habits surrounding WoW specifically. So I guess this is my way of owning that and resolving myself to stay in control.